I had two hours all to myself today. This is an incredible rarity in my life. (I suspect in any mom's life.) I spent that precious time doing absolutely nothing.
Truth be told, I had planned to read (another rarity these days). But I left my book in the room where my daughter was napping. No way I was going to risk waking her up by going in there to get it. So I lounged by a pool soaking up the sun and enjoying a cool sea breeze. And it was, well, weird! I'm not used to doing nothing.
I don't ever just sit still and do nothing. Usually when my daughter is napping I work out, take a shower or do things around the house. When I have someone to watch her, I go grocery shopping or run some other kind of errand without having to take her along. Or I schedule a routine doctor's appointment. Real exciting stuff.
Occasionally, very occasionally, I will splurge for a pedicure. So occasionally in fact that the last time I went, the woman took my feet in her hands, looked up at me and said, "It's been a while since you were here last, no?"
Please do not misunderstand me. My daughter is the absolute light of my life. But once I became a mom I found I placed my own needs at the bottom of the list. Or not even on the list at all. And over time I started to feel edgy.
Writing saved me. It gave me the creative outlet I desperately needed. It is something I have that is just for me. I am able to find an hour each day, sometimes two, to dedicate to writing. And I don't feel guilty about it. This has made a world of difference.
The occasional pedicure is nice, too. So moms, how much time do you get to yourself? And how do you like to spend it?